Things You Never Knew About F

First, let me say that F has a bit of a wild side...and I have proof.

Yes, the other night F was jamming out to I believe "Band on the Run." You might not see this wild side of F often, but it exists. But to top it all off she has given birth to an evil boy...who brought this into my house with a bet! (Everyone knows Baptist don't bet!)

Yes, F's son, Stephen brought me in this nasty little Texas ornament and says, "If OU losses the National Championship game you have to hang this on your tree next year." Wait what if they win Stephen...what are you going to have you do!!!! BEWARE!!!

More to come on this!!!

Happy 51st Birthday!

Today is Dan's birthday. It must be terrible having a birthday in between two holidays. I got up and fixed breakfast. His parents got him a new Ipod and the boys got him a Jonathan Edwards' Book. Happy Birthday.

Christmas 09

There is a new member of the family.

My Dad and Brother bought the boys a Wii for Christmas. I had talked to my brother one day and mentioned that my boys were almost grown and it would be nice for PawPaw to do something for them. They are estatic.

Dan's Parents then got them this game and an extra controller.

As you can see Matt is totally into this game.

I got a wonderful set of lipstick (Estee Lauder) and a gift card to Dillard's (be still my heart).

Oh Me! X-Rated Post

Oh me! We've been a little wild at the Hestad Homestead today. My back has been hurting so after breakfast Dan said why don't you try the jacuzzi, I'll fix you a bubble bath. Well this 49 year old has NEVER taken a bubble bath. So Dan put in the bubbles, but then I turned on the jacuzzi.

The bubbles soon took over, Dan was dipping out bubbles with a bucket and it was the funniest thing I've been a part of in a long time!

May your holidays be as bubbley as mine!

Christmas '09 Part 1

Drew and Nicole made it down for Christmas this past weekend. It was so hard to see them go! Looking at the picture I can't get over how big Gabe is getting.

We had our classic fondue party. I didn't think that the rice and broccoli turned out good, but oh well. Then we exchanged gifts...

Gabe got these Call of Duty boxers and was very excited to model them all night. Christmas still excites Gabe and I'm glad. I'm not glad about his 87 in English, but I'm glad he has childlike wonder still.

This boy should be a comedian. I think he could give Larry the Cable Guy a run for his money. Just let him get started on going to the doctor and everyone cracks up!

I really miss these two. Nicole has grown into a part of the family. I do wish they were closer; however, they are excited about our new house.

Quote

Yesterday in the choir a fellow teacher looked at F and said, "Isn't it great to have two weeks off and we don't even have to think about school." F says she was puzzled and replied, "I may not see them for two weeks, but they are in my every thought."

When you teach fifth grade the pressure of the test is almost too much. When you have an inclusion class and a parasupport class, you are always thinking of how to reach them. Two weeks of 12 hours days were starting to catch up with me. I'm glad for a rest from long days. I left home at dark and got home after dark. I missed my family.

I read sweet blogs of how precious women love their little ones and feel defeated, because when I get home I've given every thing to 50 students and have nothing left for my own. Yet, how do you balance your own and those you are intrusted with? I don't guess I know.

I know exhaustion, lack of patience, and no money. I hear administration talk of adding more hands on instruction to the classroom, yet we are expected to pay for it. I know that most people think...so. But last week F spent over $30 to have candy for some hands on graphing exercises. I've read other blogs where people spend lots of money on notebooks and other material for their kids.

So for the new year, I'd like to learn balance. How to be the best at home and school, without feeling the exhaustion and failure.

A Christmas Miracle

Remember when I mentioned the little boy in my room. Well his speech teacher, a parapro, and I have worked to help make him feel as special as we think he is. So Friday rolled around. K came in to my room with a letter from mom. It was a tear jerker. Thanking me for loving K, wanting me to be aware of all that lay ahead for her and her concern for him. I was so sad (could it only been 35 years since my mom had this same talk with my teachers), but had prayed the day would be special for him.

First, came a suprise package that was a bag of books, no note from who. He was so excited. Inside was the book Ol' Yeller. We had all worked and put together a card with money in it for him and his mom. We already had shoes and clothes wrapped up. (We did all this anonimously.)

Then in the afternoon we had our annual bike give away. All the students who make honor roll or have perfect attendance get to put their name in the hat. WELL guess who won...K. He looked at me, I looked at him and said get on up there. He was running out the room, everyone is screaming and hollering. But it was when we got in the hall and people started coming out of their rooms clapping and saying "Yeah Kenneth." I thought I'd die.

Later we went for a long recess and K looks at me and says, "This morning I had an old bike with a torn seat, now I have a brand new bike. Can it get any better than this?"

Oh K, I hope when you got home and had your extra gifts that you realized there is a God who cares and looks over you. As the hard days (that are surely ahead for you) come may you never forget the day that Miracles happened.

Thank you God for being in the miracle business and letting me see them through the eyes of a 10 year old boy!

On the 8th day before Christmas

It is 61 degrees in Georgia and pushing on up towards 70 today. I woke up hot and I'm scrambling for light weight clothes to wear to work. My kids yesterday even agreed that my room was a sauna!

The in-laws are here all snug in their bed. They've done lots of little projects. Last night we were all up late shelling pecans so I could make banana nut bread for the janitors.

Report Cards must be ready by tomorrow. Tonight I must make more chex mix for the retirement party on Thursday.

Has anyone noticed that PW has posted molasses cookies on her site. I'm so making those!

Part 2

The day progressed with much eventfulness! My lesson today centered around analyzing the difference between the written text and its movie version. We do this in our Chris VanAllsburg author study. Should of been simple enough! Only the new school is full of new technology. So I use the SmartBoard to watch a movie, only their was no sound. Apparently when we moved we only came with two old fashioned prehistoric television sets! So then I ended up having to try to show an hour and a half movie in one hour after lunch....it didn't work! So my day was totally over.

Then in the process I get chewed out because a certain girl in F's room was making the librarian and staff crazy. I listened and said, "Well, we have 25 more who act just like her, it is tough." Then got yelled at when office personnel said, "We are looking for a fifth grade teacher." I replied, "Well there are 3 others teaching the same grade." Their response was, "Well excuse us for speaking to you at all!" GROW UP!

Then if life wasn't going smooth, CJ and DB got into it. CJ got two days suspension and DB got nothing, because he has paperwork saying he is certifiable? WHAT!!!!!!! Inclusion is good for some, but we have several who need to be resourced this year. So it makes for a long difficult day for the rest of us.

Came home and everyone was gone. They called to get me to start cooking. CW called and may be sending money from Daddy for the two remaining boys a special gift. Note the money is not here yet! And hopefully, I don't have to add to it!!!!

Praise God

I just called Linda and good news she is stable. The doctors in Houston are keeping her on the drug trial and she will continue to go down every 21 days for more testing and observations. Wouldn't it be wonderful if they had found something that cured cancer!

Introspection

Most people understand that teaching is more than a job. Probably very few understand that a good teacher these days puts in a good 13 hour day at least 5 days a week, and always has work on the weekend. When we aren't working we are studying how to become better. For 180 days my students are never out of my mind! Then through the years I think of them often and pray for their well being! However, my greatest job isn't so much the academics as it is to help them learn how to be better human beings.

Their reaction to yesterday's throwing up incident really upset me. So our day started with a stern talk about how to treat others. There were tears, but I hope they got it! Then my tough big boy...I learned something about him. Even though he is bad to the bone, he wants limits and to know you somebody loves him. Yesterday, someone comment "Oh her comes CJ he must want something, so he'll ask H." Okay, so that person doesnt' know that he is a 12 year old who gets to roam the streets and his mom doesn't know or care where he is! Tomorrow will be hard for him, because I will be gone. Today, they came to collect cans and before they came in CJ picked up a can and said, "I need this." I said, "You can have it." He didn't take it, but he sure could have.

Then there is a little boy in my room, sweetest child I've ever taught. The other day we were working on persuasive letters to President elect Obama and we were talking about issues of today, when he started sharing. It was very uncharacteristic of him. He shared that his mom's cancer just kept showing up and that the doctor's at Emory are going to put her on a clinical trial. My heart breaks for a precious child whose life will forever be changed because of illness. So on the way home I decided I wanted to put together a little Christmas for him. Not because that happy child doesn't have everything he needs (love and security, the thing CJ doesn't have), but because I want him to have a special day where sickness isn't even thought about!

Monkey had a big birthday today. I hope it was all she expected! It started out a rainy, dismal day in Georgia. I hope it got brighter for her.

Miscellaneous

Today was a day! At 2:30 my autistic boy started to throw up. He hadn't been himself all day and I kept having the parapro check on him. I was jumping children and grabbing for a trashcan. My para did not leave me! She stayed and while I cleaned him up, she dealt with 23 screaming, immature 5th graders. Then she cleaned up the room.

During this time I was having a major hot flash. To the point F thought I might be fixing to implode. Sweat was dropping off me in buckets, my hair and shirt were soppy wet. I tutored afterschool and my little girl kept saying it is only 72.5 degrees in here. I guess she had never seen anyone sweat profusely.

I stayed at work till 6:40 and then went to choir practice. Got home at 9:15, made the bad choice and came home the dirt road after a long day of heavy rain. My car is now caked in Georgia red dirt.

So now it is time for bed and time to start this all over again. I hope the sweating is less tomorrow! Brenda thinks it could be that they've changed my thyroid medicine and lowered the doseage.

Check it out

Check out shutter sisters website. They are giving away a divine necklace!

Need Ideas

I would like to spend the week before break making crafts. I want simple directions that the kids have to read in order to make the "what-ever". Perhaps, I can develop those critical reading skills and get them ready for expository writing after the break. I know you've got some! I would use Oriental Traders, but those tend to be too difficult.

What a week!

This week I've tutored afterschool twice, had play practice twice, and a hair appointment. Let's just say the week culminated yesterday with the schoolwide recitation contest. We didn't win the drama contest, but we'll be more prepared next year. However, my student will be representing 5th grade in the countywide contest and I think we've got a good shot at the district.

Then last night we watched the Jackson Christmas Parade for the 12th year. Before the parade we met F & R for supper at Jimmy's. We've eaten at Jimmy's every year, but one (we ate Mexican).

Today, promises to be just as busy. I need to figure out if my IRB is going to be approved before February and I have some doubts on that one. If it can't be approved I may have to take a break on the dissertation and start back in Summer, using the next school year as my reasearch year. We shall see...I'm struggling with my assumptions, delimitations, and limitations.

The Tree

This year we were driving by a local plant store on Keys Ferry and saw these beautiful trees, so in the pouring rain, we pulled in. The man had just gone to NC and picked up a beautiful load of Frazier Firs. They were reasonably priced, so we bought it. The boys were unimpressed...they should be lucky we didn't go fake!
I need to take photography lessons from MonkeyBean, but for now this is it!

Another Wonderful Visit

Yesterday, we headed west. We went to see our friends from Colorado, who moved to Pennsylvania when we did, and now live in Peachtree City. Denitia's parents have now moved to Peachtree City as well and her disabled brother. Her dad was chairman of the deacons when Dan was ordained a deacon. He retired as head of the Department of Education at Western State College in Gunnison. Then they returned to Abiline, Texas, where for the past 20 years they worked as house parents at Hendrick's Childrens Home where he was raised. It was wonderful to reconnect with such wonderful people. Now they are content to pick Levi up everyday from school (Levi is Norris and Denitia's adopted son, they have three girls too.) Someday I need to blog about living in Colorado.

One thing I can say is that Peachtree City is very crowded compared to the Wilderness we've chosen to live in. Denitia and Norris live in a subdivision where people are racked and stacked. Made me appreciate my 5 acres.

Anyway, Denitia had tons of food (literally), everything was great. She had cooked for days!! When we lived in Pennsylvannia, they ate nearly every meal with us, Denitia didn't cook. She has become a GREAT cook. Of course I had to have a piece of Buttermilk pie, love it!!!

Today we have to work! Oh you don't have too...if you like coming in on Monday morning with your room sitting out in the hall!

Good Times

We had a nice visit at Dianne and Eddie's last night. They've done some remodeling and the house was looking so nice. She had even worked with her MIL and made the most fantastic valances.

Dianne fixed ham last night. I want to encourage everyone to find the Paula Deen signature Smithfield ham with the crunchy honey glaze topping. It was fantastic!!!

This morning we are busy again. I'm back to writing. Dan and Matt have gone to get some painting done at the old house. Then we should be finished.

Tonight we are off to Norris and Denitia's and that should be fun. Her parents have recently moved to Georgia and we haven't seen them in 16 years. So we will enjoy catching up with them. Then tomorrow it is off to work. YUCK!

Also, I'm giving myself a break about the house, we still are not totally moved in. There are boxes to be unloaded! I hate it!! I was going to have the Sunday School Party at our house this year, but I'm crossing that off my list. I think this year if we get a tree, that will work!

Reasons to be Thankful Part 4

1. That I am recommitted to the doctoral process. (I really have wanted to put this away for awhile now. Too many things have tugged at my mind.)
2. That we are healthy!
3. I'm thankful that I grew up with a loving family...that in the short time we were all together instilled in me the meaning of Family. (My mother has been gone 31 years and my Grandmother 25.)
4. I'm thankful that when my mother and grandmother could have trashed Linda Lou for having an affair with my Daddy and him leaving, but they didn't. Who knew that when they refused to say an unkind word about either of them that they gave me the greater gift. I've treasured being close to Linda for 30 years.
5. I'm thankful that the doctors at MD Anderson are not ready to give up on Linda and still have one more treatment that they can try if the current one fails.
6. I am thankful for my church. Since I was a small child church has been a cornerstone of my life and I'm thankful that God has always helped us find good churches.
7. I'm thankful for Pastor Lane. He has had to grow up fast. Who knew that two years ago when our then pastor split the church, that Lane could rise to the occassion. I'm thankful for the fact that he is back in seminary working on a doctorate and learning how to be a solid Bible teacher.
8. I'm thankful for Brenda and Charlie, they have been our spiritual parents and such a blessing to us.
9. I'm thankful for friends that love me even when I am unlovable.
10. I'm thankful that God has saved my family and my friends and that we will have eternity together.

Amy Grant - Saved By Love

I love this Classic from Amy Grant. Somehow it has always said it all for me!

Reasons to be Thankful Part 3

1. This week Dan has cooked breakfast every morning. This morning I woke up to the smell of bacon cooking and coffee brewing.
2. That we are almost moved out of the old house. Because our landlords are elderly, we are going beyond typical move out cleaning. We are even painting two rooms.
3. That Dan has handled all the cleaning at the old house and let me concentrate on the new house.
4. That Dan is taking all the boys today and I am going to write! My mind is so full of stuff.
5. That I have a job. I tend to get nervous right now that when the dust settles Dan won't be able to find any work, but I can't let myself go there. God is good and has not brought us this far to see us crumble.
6. I have my T6 pay now!! Whoo-hoo!!!

Have I mentioned I am NOT cooking this week. Tonight we will have olive bread (PW), salad, and spaghetti.

Reasons I'm Thankful Part 2

1. That I've got good friends. It would be very sad to not have friends.
2. That I've almost got Christmas bought. (This comes mainly from telling everyone "I love you" let's don't exchange gifts and just enjoy each other!)
3. That I'm married to Dan. God has worked hard over the past few months reminding me why I love him.
4. That I don't feel the need to cook big meals for a week this year. That I want to do simple soups, bread, and enjoy my family.
5. That perhaps this year, the focus can be on family, friends, and food. Not on presents and stuff.

I've enjoyed the slow mornings, drinking two cups of coffee and enjoying visiting with Dan. It has been way too long since we've had that luxury.

Reasons I'm Thankful Part 1

In order to get moving in a forward motion in the holiday spirit, this week will be dedicated to reasons I'm thankful.

1. God saved me!
2. That I really did marry the love of my life. (even though there have been some incredible difficult times)
3. I have my own house at age 49.
4. I have three healthy children and one daughter in law.
5. That our children are not even asking for much this year at Christmas

This week I'm unpacking boxes and writing. Cooking will be limited and savored for a better time! I'm planning a big blowout in December.

PS. Money saving Christmas idea...recycle old cards as covers for a handmade Christmas CD.

What a day

We started early this morning. We had to get Gabe to Jackson to catch the bus. Then go to Stockbridge for Dan's surgery. All went extremely well for Dan. We are very fortunate, it was caught early and had not spread. Others I work with have not been so lucky. Please pray for them over the holiday.

We stopped and picked up Matt's Christmas. It is much, but I felt very good about our choices. Also found a little something for Grandma. I wish everyone was that easy. I bought a new nightgown, on sale for $7. You know when your hubby of 24++ years says your nighties are ratty, it is time to pay up. (I didn't know he even noticed anymore)

I've unpacked some stuff but there is a lot to unpack. Since Drew, Nicole, Grandma, and Grandpa are not coming for Thanksgiving, I'm seriously (sit down) considering NOT COOKING! I've got a house to unpack, a paper to write, and papers to grade, so why should I cook!! We could go out to eat cheaper! Then on Friday we are going over to Norris and Denitia's for a long over due visit.

I still haven't spent some quality time in my whirlpool and that is a top priority.

Tomorrow is pizza and a great football game. BOOMER SOONER!

11/18/2008

Tomorrow night we will spend in our new house. There is still cleaning and more stuff to move from here. Obviously, over the last four years we were in here like sardines!

Tonight I went to the doctor and she thinks I may have an absess behind my tonsil. She put me on a high power antibiotic and is getting me a fast tract ticket to an ENT. At best she is hoping the antibiotic will make some difference. She asked if I could sleep and I said no, not since the strep throat three weeks ago. She said no wonder, she had never seen a tonsil that big. Thanks! While there I mentioned my crying weekend and asked if having given up birth control pills after 10 years could be a reason, and having my thyroid medicine doseage lowered. She said I'd be a canidate for out of control emotions.

God was good today. I met N early this morning and told her how it seemed to me. There were things she didn't know that had she known she wouldn't have gotten involved. I know that it was prayer and that diffused the situation. I need to at least debrief the paras twice a week and make sure we are all working together and not separate.

After the doctor, we headed to Target! I got a rug for the living room (not something forever, but will last out the couch!) Also, a bed skirt, a mattress cover, two throw pillows, two door rugs, and a bionicle.

Training Union

At training union tonight, I realized that tomorrow will be a difficult day for me. However, I need to be the bigger person in this. For whatever reasons God has allowed this to happen, and I must look for His purpose in all of this.

It is a struggle, the human side of me says that after the comment was made by the other educator present, that I now have no clout whatsoever. The paras won on this one, and who said there isn't power in numbers. But I can't let my mind go there. I am just so sad.

Tomorrow I am going to get up and pray hard before work. That God would help me walk in uprightness. Because truthfully ya'll, I didn't do anything wrong in this situation. I've searched my heart. I do let them get louder than some other teachers might. But literature leads itself to discussion if done correctly, or so I thought. When I model they are talking to me and giving suggestions. So they are loud. They may even be disrespectful, but they aren't to me.

Please pray hard. I'm going for the full armour of God. Two little old ladies in Dan's Training Union Class, CB and BB are going to pray at 7:00 that God will double dip me! I hope He hears and gives me all I need to be gracious and kind to those who have attacted my classroom management ability.

A Little Better

After my last big cry in the shower this morning. I'm somewhat better over the things that transpired Friday. There is no reason for anyone to try and apologize, I don't want to hear it. I will continue on and make the best out of this situation. I do not have to eat lunch with those involved, I can go to my room. I don't have to walk down the third grade hall, there are other ways to my room. That way if the parapros feel the need to go on about what a sorry teacher I am, I won't hear it. I did email the first friend I made 11 years ago when I came to Jackson, and stated how the events transpired to me. She has not responded and that is okay as well. I need to move on and I have a job to do. This is too much drama for me.

This verse came to my mind this morning, "Consider the work of God: for who can make that straight which He has made crooked? "—Eccles. 7:13. Thomas Boston wrote a book describing how can we straighten that which God has made crooked. I know that this is from God and he has a purpose and a plan. I will continue on. I will not discuss this matter with F. when she returns. And until I can function without crying, I may not be able to talk to F. for a while. Hopefully, as good a friends as we are she will understand.

I do not want to discuss this at school or anywhere else. I do not want to hear I am sorry from anyone, because it changes nothing. I especially don't want to hear that it was not an attack on me as a person, because it was.

Pray that I will get through this! But my head is spilting, I can't talk, and I want to move forward.

Thought I'd Feel Better

I really thought that I'd feel better as the day has wore on, but I don't. I guess part of it was how fast I was tried and found guilty by my friends. No one asked me what happened. The parapros won. Funny I didn't know I was even on trial.

To top it off I'm getting sicker and my chest is starting to hurt which means this is in my lungs. I've cried so much I can't seem to pack. (I don't like any of the boxes!) The living in between two houses about sums up my spirit. I'm so sad and hurt and lonely. I honestly look back over yesterday and I'm just numb. If I knew what I did, other than did not make an irreverant child show respect to a parapro who is up in their face. Forget the fact that just the day before the same parapro had not liked the way I was dealing with the child and totally disregarded what I said and went to NH, who told her to take it to V. He was shocked when he heard that I had originally said, then the para went on her way.

Oh and if you were wondering why the first parapro had to be moved it is because my students are rude and disrespectful and loud. They made her nervous. Forget that one day in class within ear shot of a child she proceeded to tell me how sorry is momma, daddy, and preacher grandpa were. Now tell me how you make a kid respect someone who has said horrible things about your family for everyone to hear.

Dan Says...

I'm emotional! You think!!! He said that the buying the house, attempting to move and being strung out over two houses is tough. I must agree. However, I'm still hurt over everything from yesterday. I've got way too much on my plate.

This morning I'm going out shopping and hopefully this afternoon I can get some stuff moved. Dan is hanging in there with the judging job. The show lasted till after midnight last night and he was back at it by 9:00 this morning. So they are having a huge show.

Pray that I won't continue to be emotional. That I won't take everything so personal. I'm stopping for a pedicure and hope that makes me feel better.

Depths of Despair

I must be hypersensitive these days.

Of course there is the little thing of trying to move into a house. My husband having some rare type of skin cancer. My husband not working and needing to look for a job. The looming thoughts of getting back to work on a dissertation. Added to an extremely difficult class to teach.

Now I can add to that the people around me thinking I am a bad teacher. I don't know if you've ever had the pleasure of knowing that people are talking about you, but it is no fun. Today when I came back in after bus riders the posse had the rope ready and I was the lynching material! I can't even explain to you what it felt like to know I had gone through two parapros! That I have no control over my classroom. And therefore the parapros could not stand it! I should of gotten the hint yesterday when the same group told me they would raise all kinds of cane if their child was in my class. I had assumed it had to do with the children in my class.

I'm sorry I did not fully understand until my near lynching that my job entails making sure that all children in my room are respectful to every adult they encounter (parapros, lunchroom staff, other teachers, etc). Or that their lack of respect for adults was a direct reflection upon me! I emailed one of my friends in charge of the parapros and mentioned perhaps she should come observe me and see what I'm doing wrong. I guess I had hoped that I'd get that warm fuzzy, it isn't you. Funny, I didn't get that. Even though she did call me back and try to make it better, she never did say it isn't you. She did say I was not responsible for his actions.

So have no fear I am a quick study. My most important job is to protect the adults my children come in contact with. Not teach the best I can in less than idea situations. Then I am to make ADD children who are not on medication sit in their seats and not move. Also, I've learned it has to be me because F doesn't have any problems. I've even learned that in previous years this certain student worked and was okay. Funny, that is not the story I heard until he was my problem. I think time has a way of diminishing how bad things really are!!!

So tonight I will continue to cry as hard as the rain is falling. I will pray for Dan that he does a great job judging this weekend, and that he isn't sick anymore. I will also pray that Matt makes it home safely and that we are able to get done everything that needs to be done. I will thank God that Gabe's bad day at school was only because someone bumped his arm and he spilled milk down his shirt. That today when I tutored Devon-she laughed. (Devon laughed a lot yesterday...apparently the word heifer is funny.) And that my best friend (who is also the best teacher:)) is having fun in New York City. I will praise God that JG (who LOVES drama) agreed to look over the play and offer suggestions, since I'm not artsy. That Monkey (who is overworked and underappreciated) is making my signs. I will be thankful that for the next few weeks Dan can help with Gabe. And somewhere in those prayers I will ask God to make me less sensitive and help me to do a better job teaching in His eyes.

670 Bear Creek Marina Road

This is were you will soon find the H family. As of yesterday we are home owners! Today we are trying to garage sale. Matt is suppose to come home tonight and help Dan load the truck. I still don't know about the decorating. I think I'm using what we've got and then adding and deleting peaces as we go.

Dan went to see the surgeon yesterday. The surgery has been moved up. Dan has Sebaceous gland carcinoma. This is an extremely rare type of skin cancer. Prognosis looks good. So we will see, however, he did not show them another one that is under his arm. Surgery was rescheduled for Nov. 21.

We should be moving this week!

The Latest

We still have not closed. This is the reason as I know it right now. We were getting the USDA Rural Development Loan. This loan is available for property in Butts and Jasper County. Which is great because those are the two counties we want to live in. Anyway, seems that the loan has this obscure clause about swimming pools. Well the house has a swimming pool; however, it is defunct and might even need to be filled in.

It seems that the H family was able to be approved at every step, when suddenly a week ago today someone said, "Oh, we have a no swimming pool policy. No big deal we just need a waiver. If this had come in next month the rules are being changed and the swimming pool doesn't matter." Now since this comment was made the loan and appraisal were sent to the USDA regional office. At which point it seems to be bogged down in bureaucracy! So we wait. I am assured every day that there is no problem, they just need the waiver.

I am not a patient type person, so this is all hard. Yet, I will trust in God! Dan goes to a consult with the surgeon tomorrow. I will not be going because you can't get off work around this place unless you are officially dead!

Oh Me...

This is how things are today...

1. We are still waiting to close on the house. We reset the closing date for tomorrow, but we are still missing some paper from the regional office of the USDA. WE have been approved for the loan and all the paperwork is done, but we NEED the waiver. Pray that we would get this waiver early in the morning.

2. Dan had started packing the house. Now we are in limbo with so many things packed.

3. In the midst of this I'm planning a garage sale. This was suppose to be wonderful, but now with the limbo about the move, everything is a mess.

4. There is still a dissertation that needs me to be settled and writing.

5. There is still a job that Dan needs to find. He is studying for his CDL in hopes of landing a job with the propane company. Pray that Dan will get a job before December.

6. Then there is work...which is killing me these days.

Election Eve

I wish I had a scanner and could show you a picture of my grandmother. I think it would help you comprehend this better.

The first election I voted in was 1980. I drove my grandmother down to the polling place at my old high school. Before we went in my grandmother looked at me and said, "Just fill in the circle under the rooster." Back then the rooster was the column that signified the Democratic party. My grandmother was a yellow dog democrat. She would have voted for a yellow dog if it ran on the Democratic ticket. The reason was she had voted for Hoover and lived through the depression. She prayed everyday that God would see her family through and in return promised that she would never vote for another Republican as long as she lived. She never voted for another Republican, but I wonder what she would do today?

My grandmother died 3 months before I had Drew (24 years ago). I want to think that she would feel the same way I do. I did not leave the democratic party--they left me. You see those strong Oklahoma Judeo-Christian values she instilled in me have transcend politics. While I would never label myself as ultra-conservative, I am conservative to the depths of my soul. I look at the elections tomorrow and know that whatever happens God knew before hand and has allowed it to be. So I have no fear. Oh, I do think if one gets in, instead of the other...we may be in for a tough time in America.

I know many of my friends would not think me progressive enough, and may even look down on me. But that isn't that the beauty of voting...I can vote my conscience, not yours!

The saddest statement on this election was made by a fifth grader last week. They were lingering around in my room, and since I never lock up my purse I was shooing them out. I said for them to come on cause there was no money in the room. It was then that one of my little girls looked at me and with all seriousness said, "Don't worry Mrs. H, after Obama is president next week, he is going to share the wealth and then you will have money." I wanted to cry! I wanted to scream, I don't want someone else's money, I only want what I WORK for. Perhaps it comes from being put through college by a wealthy oil man. It was his money, I had no rights to it, he choose to help me get through school and in return I made good grades. I have the same ability to work and make money as he did. Again it is those crazy Oklahoma values that still determine who I am today!!

Fall Festival

Today was our schools fall festival. Now I'm not big on this stuff right now. There are lots of things running around in my mind. However, you do get to spend the day with friends. (Have I ever mentioned I love the I'm A Noun shirt?

And then if your lucky you win an auction! This was great because it was Reese's homeroom basket. So it was full of Reese stuff and recipes to cook with, and that's funny because my maiden name was Cook. Just some insight! Also, the basket has two free foot messages in it! How cool is that!!!
Now since I keep my hair pulled back in my glasses most of the time. I think I need to decide am I letting it grow or chopping it off on Tuesday. It looks rather flat here!

At times Life is STRANGE

We didn't close on the house today. I'm told this happens 90% of the time. So I'm bummed about that. Then last week Dan and I went to get a place removed from under his eye. It was like a skin tag. Nothing big, even the doctor agreed. Well, yesterday they called to say it is cancerous. So now we are looking at outpatient surgery on Dec. 12. At this point it is categorized as a form of skin cancer. Now they will go in and take off the skin a layer at a time, until they get it all. A plastic surgeon is on standby in case they need a skin graph. Talk about a shock.

On a happier note all my paper work for my T-6 went to central office today. So hopefully within the next few weeks I will be paid as a T-6. Thank you Jesus!!!

Also, Dan and I have decided not to go overboard on decorating the new house, we will get by with what we have. However, I refuse to move the ratty couch, so you may need to bring lawn chairs to visit!

Life in the Fast Lane...

...surely makes you lose your mind! The song is coming true. Perhaps it is best for one not to move, at the same time they are working on a dissertation (I'm panicing about the computer and changing email addresses), and have red ribbon week at school! It is absolutely crazy around here!

Closing on house Friday! I think this is suppose to be a good crazy!!

Memoir Monday

We have lived at this house for five years now. In that time we've had a son graduate from college, a son graduate from high school, a wedding, the death of our little nephew Jackson, a son going off to college, me starting a doctorate program, Gabe going from elementary school to middle school, and Gabe making friends with Ryan who is like son #4.

Its funny I should be excited about owning my own house. I've waited 25 years for my cowboy husband to want to settle down, now at 50 he appears ready. Yet, I'm sad at leaving my little neighborhood. I love it over here. I love Mr. Phillip and Mrs. Martha, they are special neighbors. I love the convinence, I'm 5 minutes from work. I love the solitude out my bedroom window...

I know that soon we will make new memories. I told Dan the new house wasn't big enough for us. Where will I have my fondue party? Where will we put Grandma and Grandpa, Drew and Nicole at Christmas? He says it will all work out. He said we only have Gabe another 5 years, and the house would be big enough and there was room to grow. That we are investing in the future. We will be across the street from the lake, and there is a pool that can be repaired for the future.

So for the next few weeks as I cherish memories of the past, I look forward to the prospect of making new memories. The thought of knowing we've settled down, and that this area will be our home till Jesus calls us home gives me comfort.

Let the Party Begin

We should be closing next week. So now we are at the packing, selling and moving stage. I've got several antique pieces that need to find a new home. So I need to get pictures this week for that and post them.

Notice the room, we are going to glass this in for my serious office. The next year should be very busy!

Some Day

Some day I will understand the politics of school. I'm not sure when, but I will. I think that it is a waste of time. I've got things to do. I don't have time to play games. I'm sad to think that this is the way it is.

I'm also disappointed to think of all the budget cuts coming in the next year. F made the comment that those of us higher up on the pay scale will need to stay put, because who would want to take on our higher end salary.

On a happier note, I signed the loan papers on the house. The next few weeks will be exciting to say the least. More to come on that.

Back in the saddle again...

Yes, today was a good day. I've got two students that make me a bit crazy, but I've decided on new punishment for them! I'm teaching sentence fluency this week. I *heart* teaching the traits. We are working off the book "Black Cat". Today, we talked about the author's use of phrasing and I let them work in groups. They did a really good job, so far. I'm not sure how this assignment will work on paper, but so far we love it!!

Then I was just amazed today at how many standards I was covering while reading today. So today was a good day for my group and F's. We worked hard and got in some quality time. One of F's little guys has been struggling...I'm glad we now have our head out of our shirt! Anyway, I looked at him and said, "T, you've really been working hard. I noticed and wanted you to know how awesome you are doing." He looks at me and says, "That little pill in the morning is great. I can understand you now." I said, "Well is there something you'd like from the book fair?" He quickly replied, "The Speed Racer Book." So I bought it for him, like I've got money.

At faculty meeting, I got a surprise. I had helped Dr. B. with an assignment and she gave me a copy of "When Hitler Stole Pink Rabbit". I was so suprised and excited!

Now that sounds like a big day, but there is more. The loan officer called and all is looking good to get the house. I still have the feeling that something could go wrong, but I'm moving forward! I still think I need a formal dining room, but I will work that out later!

I've got a couple of antique pieces I want to sell and perhaps have the money for a new couch. I'm going to be posting pics soon of an oak wardrobe and a 1940's red stenciled enamel table with pull out sides. Plus, I want Dan to pull together a huge yard sale for the weekend of the 1st. (Yes, I know we will be busy with the fall festival).

Three Dog Night Never Been To Spain

Oklahoma is voting on the official rock 'n roll song. This is my choice! Boy, can I remember belting this one out!!!!

Wouldn't you know!

I don't run into many people who are allergic to penicillian. (Lucky for them) So when I got the Strep Throat, the magic drug was not an option. So they put me on Baxitin (from the mycin family), now my sweet mother was allergic to mycins and usually I take something from the sulfa family. Unfortunately, for me sulpha medicines do not work against strep. So in true L fashion, after three doses of the Baxitin I had the most severe side effect you can imagine. I haven't slept all night, because of it feeling like someone was ripping my stomach and liver out of my body every few seconds. I started itching and having pains shoot through my head and my face is extremely red. At 4:00am I thought of the emergency room. Lasted to 9am and went into doctor's office. "Yes, Mrs. Hestad this is a terrible reaction to the Baxitin."

So now I am starting a "Z-pack" and have medicine to ease the pain of the side effects which could linger for several more days. My throat is actually getting worse instead of better at this point. And for our further information they haven't seen any strain of illness this season that is responding as should to medication. What is usually knocked out in 5 to 7 days is now taking 10 to 14 days. Which explains Matt's croopy cough.

Have I mentioned I love teaching!

Strep

I am just hoping to live past today! I've got strep. Got two shots in doctor's office and medicine to take. Can't come back till Monday.

Quilt Give Away

I love quilts! You can win this one.

Ranting and Raving

I'm raving about the goodness of God! Today, I got the biopsy back and there is no cancer, so that's not the problem. Dan sold a horse and we can put the money back to use for house expenses as needed. Things are moving forward for the business to end on Friday. They are also moving forward on the house. Our bid was accepted (now we are praying about the original loan still working).

I'm ranting about professional football players. It is hard to handle all the hype over someone who makes millions per year breaking their finger. Cowboy up!! I go to work everyday with a back that feels like it is breaking and don't make near that amount of money. Also, what's with letting all the lowlife like Pacman Jones play ball. Did we not learn a lesson with Odell Thurman? Money doesn't make you a respectable person, but when you are a professional athlete who has millions of young boys looking up to you have a duty. I once heard Carl Malone say young players didn't have any business doing the stuff they do today! NFL owners need to take a play from Stoopes playbook. If you compromise your integrity--your out. WE WILL MAKE DO WITHOUT YOU!

Now I will go put up the soapbox!

I'm So Excited

Below is a note that my current professor of qualitative research attached to my paper.

Lennye, This paper ROCKS! Other than a few grammatical and APA issues, which I highlighted, this paper is nothing short of exemplary. You followed directions to a "T"! You also did an outstanding job of incorporation the resources necessary to substantiate your statements. You have set the standard, and with your permission, in the future, I'd like to use sections of your paper to assist students who may be having difficulties with this assignmment! I've attached your paper with highlighed items! Great job, Lennye! Dr. J

Now that makes me feel pretty excited about life right now. Let's see what the rest of my week holds!

Rainy Days and houses

Well I had almost forgot what rain looked like. Hasn't today been wonderful! I am so thankful. I even went and picked Gabe up at lunch (well I was there delivering the computer). We ate lunch, then came home and watched a movie.

I just posted my last paper. I might go back and redo paper 1 this time, but otherwise I am ABD (all but dissertation). Money should be forthcoming.

Then we put a bid on the lake house at Bear Creek Marina. That is a lot of house for the money! So we will see, who knows.

Dan had good news today, we got some money from one of our partner horses. Matt will get to keep his horse and the man who partnered with Matt on that horse will keep him till Matt is ready. Dan now has to get out of some other deals, but things are moving forward.

Let's see what tomorrow holds!

Updates

The volcano is made and it worked. Pictures will follow!

Bubba is going to work on my computer and try diligently to save the data. I need to take it over to him today.

The majority of the house is clean.

We have two properties that we looked at first The house is wonderful, small living area. Huge master with porch, jetted tub, two headed shower, marble counter tops. However the land will take major work, but already has a barn. It is about 20 miles to work. However, the lake is across the street.

Next, we have a house over in Flovilla. Again, beautiful house. Land needs a lot of work. This land is not as wide as the other land. However, it is cheaper.

Apparently Wednesday is the day new foreclosures are listed.

Whoa is me!

The computer has died. All the research files are on that computer. I thought Dan had it backed up, but it does not appear that the backup worked. I do have a hard copy of the dissertation. However, all my work for other classes is not backed up. I know it is my own fault!!!! Why me!!!!

The house looking continues. Along with the volcano project. First, we followed the directions that were sent home to make salt dough (very expensive). Unfortunately, the salt dough has become like THE BLOB and it is continueing to grow! Yesterday, I picked up modeling clay. Now it looks like a Christmas tree. I swear photos are coming...Oh my photos that are saved on that computer!!!!!!!

Wonder if we could find any horse pasture for lease. Just a place for the horses to live for a while would be nice. If not they are going to vacation in Burke County.

Dan still needs a job. I need to work on his resume'. So many things. At least he has a good paying judging job in November. But has to go to another clinic this month. Somebody reassure me that things will be better when he is making money and not spending so much.

Sad, but Glad

Well I'm sad, but glad at the same time. Seems that our offer was rejected. The owner does not want to come off the $165,000 and refuses to provide a termite free letter. However, the major breakdown occured when she wasn't willing to meet us at the appraisal price. I really don't think it is good to pay more for a house than it is worth. So the quest will continue. God has something out there for us.

Keep praying for a house with land for horses. Also, pray that Dan will have a job. It looks like closing down the business is going to take longer than I originally hoped. It is very hard right now on both of us. Plus this week Gabe has a major project due (that will get its on blog) and Dan needs to come home more to help. So we will face the gas monster!

Commitment

Well tonight we made an offer on the house. I don't know what the owner will counter, but time will tell. We are asking a lot. The agent said that if she took the offer it was from God and we should take it and run. Then there is the stuff about the economy and it is a buyers market, so we will not go to far with negotiations. Pray for God's will.

The Power of Prayer

Remember a few post back when Dan and I had finally decided we needed a change. Well little did we know all that God had in store for us. It seems that God needed us to stop trying so hard and just follow Him!

Last Thursday, I took a wrong turn. Kind of odd since I've driven those rodes a million times and know them like the back of my hand. Any way I noticed this...

You can see further pictures here. Most of you don't know my passion for old homes, with porches, plus a little plot of land 3.5 acres. Well I came home looked it up, and last night we went and looked at it. I'm in love!! Today, we got preapproved for the loan. We are praying now on what to offer the woman. We are hoping to put down a contract this week.

Just when you think it can't get any better, Dan has a job interview tomorrow. Harold's propane needs a full time employee. God is moving fast! Dan goes tomorrow afternoon for an interview. I am so excited I could jump up and down!

I just got off the phone with BB, my spiritual mother. She's on vacation in the mountains and she said that she had and would be praying.

I need someone to pinch me!!!

Rosh Hashanah

No, I have not converted to Judaism, but it seems a fitting holiday. Rosh Hashanah is the Jewish New Year. But it was when I read this that made me think that it fit: the Jewish New Year is a time to begin introspection, looking back at the mistakes of the past year and planning the changes to make in the new year.

Truly the Hestad's are at a time of introspection, looking over our mistakes of the past and planning big changes for the new year. I'm excited! I hope Dan is feeling excitement at the possibilities.

Keep praying.

My journal from Jane came today and she included a little note. On the note she put Joel 2:23, of course I had to look it up. The Scripture just fit with the day...So rejoice, O sons of Zion, And be glad in the LORD your God; For He has given you the early rain for your vindication. And He has poured down for you the rain, The early and latter rain as before.

In the Hands of God

I could of easily taken Jonathan Edwards title, "Sinners in the hands of an angry God", but while we are sinners saved by grace, God is not angry. Today, I wanted to write, but instead went to Sunday School in support of Dan. His class was full! He taught one of the best lessons ever out of Deuteronomy 6.

This morning was the first time I've seen him since our decision to close the business the second week in October (this is when the cows leave.) He actually looks relieved. Of course there is the worry of how we are going to pay off the business bills. This wouldn't be a problem if a couple of horses would sell, and there is the little problem of how we will make it till he finds some work. But all in all, relief is the feeling of the moment. Today just looks brighter and happier.

Last night I finished up all my postings for this last class, and today I am working on my last paper. My plan is to spend break re-doing Assignment 1 and then working on the dissertation. (I wanted to go see Drew but nows not a good time.) By the end of that week I should have the paperwork moving forward and hopefully by December see the pay raise.

Just keep praying...God is in control. We would like to close the door owing no one any money. That will only happen if God allows a horse to sale. Also, Dan needs a job. I would like to see him start back to school and finish his degree, but we shall see.

Quote

Have patience with everything

that remains unsolved in your heart.

Try to love the questions themselves...

At present you need to live the questions.

Perhaps, you will gradually, without

even noticing it, find yourself

experiencing the answer.

-Rainer Marie Rilke, Poet

This was posted on twowritingteachers seems almost written for me.

Also, go check this out

Update

Okay, this is an update on the situation at the Hestad Manor. Dan is looking at disbanning everything the second week in October. We've talked to others in the business and it looks like this downturn in the economy could have an adverse effect on the horse business for a couple of years. That is if things turn around Monday. I talked to an old friend this week and he says that if the government doesn't have something settled by Monday...we are all in for a rocky road.

So, I'm going to start working on a resume for Dan. A lot of places have online application processes. Unfortunately, this is all taking place in the midst of another paper being due, report cards, SACS visit, and various other things.

Matt came home last night. He was so cute. He's come home to minister to his parents! Last night after I went to bed he cleaned the house. Today he is going to go spend the day with his Dad. I think that is too sweet! He is very worried about if he is going to be able to keep up his grades. The animal science professor last test had questions on it that were never touched on in class. College Algebra is still causing him stress, but he wants to stick it out.

Gabe wants to know if Daddy stops working with horses and gets a job will we get to go on a vacation. Interesting...

Last night Denise came over and stayed during the football game. I fixed tacos and everyone had a good time. She sent Matt to get her cigarettes and then told him to put gas in the jeep with the rest of the money.

So in light of all of this we need you to pray very specifically. We need to sell two horses. I think we should keep Matt's horse and Earl will keep him for us. If we can't sell one of the horses, we need the man Dan is partnered with to buy out Dan's part. Dan needs a job. He is scheduled to judge a big show in November, so we need something in between. He has to go to a training seminar in October (money for that). Judging jobs would help tremendously.

Thanks.

Things May Be Looking Up

Dan and I had a long talk tonight. Not the kind where you sit down and have a face to face discussion, but over the telephone. Turned out to be a great discussion! We talked for over two hours, discussing all the things that have transpired in the last year. Finally, it felt like he heard me. I hope so! I pray that God will show Dan the steps he needs to take to get things moving in the right direction.

So tonight pray for Dan. Pray for our family. And pray for our future.

Still Not Feeling the Inspiration

I did notice that a certain art teacher has branched way out of late! artatstark is WONDERFUL!

I'm anxious for payday. I really feel that we need a break. Apparently, I need to get busy on my dissertation, because I think I'm going to have to give my first orals before I get money! I had so thought that was happening soon! Hoping praying!!!!

But until then I have report cards to get done this week!

Something More

Some days I won't this blog to be something more. Something that inspires folks to live a better life, be a better teacher, find encouragement for the journey. Alas, I think that it is far from that! However, I'm thankful I can tune into these blogs for inspiration:

Twowritingteachers they just make me want to be a better teacher.

twentytwowords his father is a famous pastor and author, yet he takes his readers on a unique journey

jane over at 54 and more she's crafty, Godly, and encouraging

rocksinmydryer she seems to have a nose for web happenings

amicksarticles I loved the info on Steinhouses blog page

girlgroit I love all things New York. I'm fascinated with the big city. It is hard to imagine a bakery in town and eating fresh bread.

However, it needs to be noted that unlike this girl in experiment land I have yet to see all of Georgia. For instance: the Zoo, the little Grand Canyon, Jimmy Carter's Birthplace, heard Jimmy Carter teach Sunday School, Cumberland Island, Jekyll Island, and many more places.

And I enjoy everyday checking in with the adventures of monkey , pioneer woman, life here, and there are more.

Still I long to leave words of wisdom upon this earth, to those I encounter, and more. Yet, I whine and bemoan my existance, when in actuality someone always has it worse. Unfortunately, here you will find no encouragement for today, but only a prayer request.

Today, Dan made a statement that he was ready for a change. This would be doable with a house on a little piece of land where he could have a barn and a few cows. (This is why we stay in the position we are in...) It would seem that with the economy so bad, surely there is a piece of level, pasture land out there for a price we could afford on my salary. So tonight when you go to sleep...PRAY...PRAY that God will show us a little piece of land, that Dan will sell three horses, and find a job. Now how hard is all this for God!!!! Pray that I have strength to believe that God's answers are on the way!

Perhaps tomorrow I can turn this into an inspirational site!

Another Project

Greetings from Project Land! That's right Gabe and I (and Gunter) have completed yet another project (our 4th in 3 weeks). This is Standards Based Education with an Attitude!

You see I am supposedly a quasi-expert on standards these days. I have had indepth training. Yet, I can not assign these type of projects to my students, because of the ones who will not do it or have no parent help on one, no computer, no one to help get pictures, etc. Yet, private school teachers who have had no indepth training in standards based education, they just read the standards, are able to assign and get quality work.

Gabe's project is a family tree. It goes along with a classroom reading assignment and will count 80% of his grade. With this visual he also is expected to bring in some family heirlooms. That is where the project is falling apart at the moment! And guess what if a student doesn't do it, they get a "0". Does anyone remember those days?

The project has pictures of Grandparents, Mom, Dad, and brothers. It also has a visual representation of what they like to do. For instance, Grandma is a crossword, Grandpa is a man in a recliner, my dad is a motorcycle, Gabe is a gaming controller, and I'm a cook. You get the idea. Anyway, this project is good, but Gabe also has to get up and tell (not read) his family history.

All very interesting, and I'm the quasi-standards based expert!

I won!!!

I won something today!!!! Jane is celbrating her one year blog anniversary and I won this beautiful journal she made. Can you tell I'm excited?

Isn't it lovely!!!! And a bit exotic like me!!!!!!!!

Items of Gratitude for the day:

1. WON Jane's giveaway

2. It is Friday and I feel like cleaning my house!

3. I only worked a half day.

4. F and I ate lunch at Jimmy's. (Love those Chicken Fingers)

5. Got online with Charter and they fixed the problem with the living room tv.

6. Gunter made a beautiful tree to help Gabe with his next project.

7. Matt is now in full charge of upkeep of the pepper plants (learned valuable lesson's on peppers).

8. Gabe is eating leftovers.

9. I have two days off.

I'm not even upset about Matt wanting to drop a class at school!

Quotes

It seems like everyone is posting quotes lately. Well I know this will be a strange quote to some, but sor some reason it just hits me. The quote is from the movie Evening. Merle Streeps character says this to the daughters of her friend. Basically she's refering to the fact that their mother had a whole life and raised two children. It fits.....see what you think....

We are mysterious creatures, aren't we? And at the end so much of it turns out not to matter.

For some odd reason I like the fact that there is a part of me that no one knows.

An Attitude of Gratitude

Okay, I'm probably not a very grateful person. I never quite know how to respond. So in an effort to be more grateful, I am going to find joy in small things.

1. Mine and F.'s LEXIA is finished.
2. NH and me are helping new teacher get hers finished.
3. One of my parents gave me a new brown shirt.
4. Same parent gave me a book bag.
5. Matt called a wrecker to get his car, the man started it, and didn't charge Matt anything.
6. Dan got enought money to pay the rest of the bills.
7. I only have to do a video observation this year.
8. Only four more weeks of qualitative research.
9. Dr. isn't too worried about my health problems, we have a plan.
10. We had food to eat, that I had put in the crock pot this morning.
11. I have good friends!

I will not focus on the fact that
1. My paycheck will be smaller next month because of paying the total insurance.
2. The company that controls our 401K went belly up!
These are things I can't change.

Where I'm From

I am not much of a poet, but I'm starting to appreciate the art of teaching poetry. Thanks in part to twowritingteachers. Anyway today I came upon this lesson plan for teaching family history with this poem. So I had to try my hand and want each of you to go over and give it a try.

Where I Am From

I am from wringer washing machines,
Grapette soda pop and peanuts.
I am from hard working folks.
I am from the memosia tree that stood beside our house,

with its feathery pink seeds that stood forever,
where we sat under in the hot Oklahoma evenings,
as we watched fireflies buzz round our heads.

I’m from family history that pre-dated statehood,
From drag racing, a truck driver, and a data entry clerk.
I am from tuna fish, potato salad, and real mayonnaise.
I am from teenage parents, sickness and pain,
Carl and Snickey.

I am from pecan pies and Sweet Garrett snuff,
from Alice and Harry,
I’m from roughnecks, fishermen, preachers, and teachers.
I’m from The Lord is my Shepard and
I ain’t a gonna do it.
I’m from Sunday School, Training Union, Camp Nunny Cha-ha and Falls Creek.

I’m from Vernice and Woodrow’s Branch,
from outdoor plumbing, taking baths in creeks, and homemade ice cream.
From rolling cigarettes, churning butter, milkin' cows,

and sleeping outside under the stars.

In my closet boxes of pictures are scattered all about,
pictures of family gatherings, of loved ones long gone
and the hope of future generations to come.
I am from those moments—
full of love and kindness-

that make me who I am today.

You've got to give this a try. I love it!!!!!

The Straw That Broke This Camel's Back

Okay, I think there is no more of me left! Last night Matt called and the Jeep won't start. Not the best time, considering that gas has sky rocketed this weekend. In addition to the fact we have NO money for an emergency. Add that to the fact that I have caught something. I've been up most of the night with fever, drainage, aches and pains. On top of the pre-existing ailments. I'm done finished!

BB has a solo Sunday morning that talks about God is right on time. Well I'm thinking now would be a good time! I've got a paper to write and I think I'll be in bed most of the day. Hope to emerge on Monday morning.

Being Thankful in the Little Things

Does anyone remember the book, Don't Sweat the Small Stuff, and it is all small stuff, it came out a few years ago and was a big hit. Well I'm modifying the concept some and trying to be thankful for the small things. You see I need GOD to do big things! So I'm not real thankful for the small, but today was different. First, I had to make an appointment to see a doctor in Macon. I'm going to Macon on Monday for a conference and needed (for time and money reasons) to kill two birds with one stone (so to speak). Well I call and they can see me at exactly the right time on Monday. Then, Dan sat his phone on top of the truck, forgot and saw it fly off and land on the road. When he gets back it is in three pieces, but he manages to put it together and it worked. Next, Dr. E calls and needs a TSS for the new teacher. F suggest I go ahead and she will fill in if needed. Again a little thing!

See I no longer can see God's purpose in any of this that is going on. I literally am consumed with pain, both physical and mental. So I need to start by identifying the small stuff! Last night BB said to me, "Everybody has a story." I know this is true, but often we miss the beauty in the story because we are busy living it!

Perhaps the blue bird of happiness will rest on my shoulders soon!

Today Something Happened

Today started out like any other day - Busy. I had planned to read this book:
I read it every year and it is one of my favorites. It has produced some good writing. Well today, I had gone to an IEP meeting and my student teacher read the book while I was out. When I got back I noticed one of my favorite little boys looked terrible. His eyes were swelling. I ask if he's okay and he says yes. I went about my business and started doing LEXIA again. Suddenly, he comes up and I'm thinking he's having some type of allergic reaction. (This is one of my favorite kiddos.) I quickly got out of LEXIA (MS will never look so smart again!) Then rushed him outside, I thought I was going to have to call the EMTs.

When we got outside I said KT what is wrong. He busted out crying, "My dog died yesterday!" (In the book Grandma dies.) He falls apart. My heart is breaking!!! He goes on a walk with Mrs. T and I go back in the room. When a little girl comes up to me and says, "You don't know about KT do you?"

"What is it?" I responded.

"Well, KT's mom has cancer. It's the really bad kind. And his daddy left them cause he didn't like them anymore. They are living in his grandparent's basement. You probably need to talk to HH's mom, she is trying to help them. "

WHOA! I thought I was going to loose it! My precious boy!! And the state of Georgia wants you to learn division, reading, writing, and everything else or your labeled a failure. When all you are trying to do is survive. And your dog dies!!!!!!!! Your crazy teacher not knowing any of this reads a sad book and you loose it.

I'm sorry little man. I want to heal all your wounds and love you forever and ever! We never know what a day may hold.

Happy 1st Anniversary!

Today this couple is celebrating their first anniversary! I hope they had a joyful day!

It Could Be Worse

Does anyone like going to the dentist? Well I am one of those people who needs to be sedated to get in the door. I HATE it! When I was about 5 a dentist tried to fill a tooth and it wasn't deadened all the way. So began my long torturous affair with dentist.

At 7, I had to have major oral surgery (The one thing my Daddy gave me was his teeth.) Dr. Barnes, knocked me out and I loved him. I was with him for 17 years. I went in when I was pregnant with Drew and he says, "Did you know your pregnant?" I guess my gums were bleeding profusely and he said it was a give away sign. Anyway, then we moved.

In Colorado, the dude was something else. I've tried to block it for years!

Now it is Dr. F. I like him well enough for a dentist. However, even with dental insurance the skyrocketing cost are unbelievable!

So you get the idea I hate going to the dentist, but I go. So I walk in today and their is a former parent in the waiting room who looks at me and says, "You look TERRIBLE! How long have you been feeling bad?" I could of cried. Of course the conversation went to alternative medicine, which I am not against. I guess what gets me is I've been to doctors for the last year and no one can fix it. Now the B12 shot doesn't seem to be working. So what is wrong with me? Could it be stress over school (work) and (college), stirred up with a touch of depression over finances, fold in various physical ailments and then sprinkled with three children (of my own) and 48 more.

So there is nothing like a day of work, a trip to the dentist, followed by a reminder that you look terrible!

Hey, did somebody throw in there that I'm fat as well!

Looking towards the Heavens for Help

Every feel worn out from traveling on the road of life? Psalms 40 gives us hope:

I waited on the Lord;

he turned to me and heard my cry.
He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;

he set my feet on a rock

and gave me a firm place to stand. (vs. 1-3)

Many, O Lord my God,

are the wonders you have done.
The things you planned for us

no one can recount to you; (vs. 5a)

Do not withhold your mercy from me, O Lord;

may your love and your truth always protect me.
For troubles without number surround me;

my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see.

They are more than the hairs of my head,

and my heart fails within me. (vs 11-12)

Be pleased, O Lord, to save me
O Lord, come quickly to help me. (vs. 13)

Yet, I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me.
You are my help and my deliverer;
O my God, do not delay. (vs. 17)

Good Morning Friends!

Well I need to get busy, but instead I'm reading blog post, something that has got to stop. Please go check out this blog. This woman truly loves fall. She lives in the Ozark Mountains and isn't the view absolutely breathtaking!

Also, go check out my girls. Ruth wrote the sweetest post about a little first grader.

You might want to drop in and read Jane's blog. Jane encourages me. We like the same stuff. We read the same books. But honestly when she posted the picture with her tea in the Mary Englebriet cup, well that was too much. (Remember me using the same magnet for encouragement last month.)

Now at some point today I've got to write a paper, clean house, do 6 loads of laundry (Matt's back), and worry about something I'm sure. The big event of the day is that for Matt's Birthday, Dan is taking Matt and Gabe to a Braves Game! I'm sending the camera and threatening to hurt Dan if he doesn't get pictures!

I also brought home 50 writing project posters to grade. I hope to get the other 50 done Monday. (I've done 18 already)

Have more fun than I will this weekend. (My class ends on October 16th. I'd like to have all work complete before our break.) Pray that God opens doors so that I can go see Drew over my break!

Love to all on this beautiful morning. (I didn't know we had temperatures in the 60's anymore).

LIFE - The Gory Details

Thank goodness it is Friday. Matt walked in with his large load of laundry! Still good to see the birthday boy. Gabe did okay on all his projects. The horseshow is canceled. So tomorrow I can work on another paper. I've fixed chips and dip for Matt's B-day dinner.

I still am having trouble with the cyst, no energy and pain. I'm tired of not feeling good. Need a break.

Then there is always Dan drama and one day when I am dead God will allow Dan, the boys and all of you know exactly how hard all this is on me! Till then my lips are sealed.

Must be a better dieter. Need to get special diet food!

Is it Saturday yet?

Today:

*Went to WW didn't lose any weight.
*Gabe announces three projects are due tomorrow. (He put them off because he needed to rest)
*Matt got a job working with the UGA Horticultural Extension. He will be doing research on pecans and muscidines. Sounds fun!
*Drew called and WANTED to talk for an hour
*TB dropped by to discuss Sunday School Christmas Party
*Heard all the places Secretary of Education stopped in to visit today!
*Gave 2nd simple assessment on sentence types, there are about 25 out of 120 that have no clue.
*Cooked supper

Pray for Dan tomorow!

Wednesday

Wednesday...middle of the week, hump day, day before lesson plans have to be turned in, church night...exhaustion. I've been really tired lately, and meant to call the doctor today and see if any test results were back. (Nothing yet) Of course it might be just the hurricanes churning around us.

We are canceling the horse show this weekend, the hurricane's impending arrival would mean that the facility we usually use is also the designated livestock shelter. So I don't know whether to be relieved or not.

Matt called and may have a date tonight. Gabe lost his wallet at school today, it had his bus fee check in it and some other important things. I was fixing to go to church when Ryan arrived for a visit. I hate to leave now. Tried to call Dan and can't get him. So it goes. I think I'm going to put my feet up.

Tomorrow is picture day at school, plus the State Secretary of Education (or State Superintendent) is coming!

It is fall and again that magical time in my life when football rules.

I know that I have lived in Georgia for 15 years now and on most days Georgia feels like home.

That is until football season rolls around.

Then there is only one team for me

That's right "Boomer Sooner".

I can't remember when it started it has just always been.

I was born into a family of football fans. I remember Mymomma sharing tales of the glory years with Bud Wilkenson. Then came Barry Switzer. My 14th birthday present was a trip to see the Sooners play. They played Wake Forest and beat them 54 to 0. Not much of a game, but it didn't matter I was there.

Now my brother lives in Norman. Occasionally he goes to a game and I'm sure if I called today and said, "I'm coming in for a game." He would make it happen.

The crazy thing about my obsession with the Sooners is the fact that my children and husband are all fans. Drew is my only child born in Oklahoma. So I'm thinking this is heredity! Yesterday, Matt ask me if I knew the whole fight song, I knew the main parts and then looked up the rest. I'm thinking it needs to be put on my tombstone:

I'm a Sooner born and Sooner bred and when I die, I'll be Sooner dead

Until that day - BOOMER SOONER!

My Class Part 2 and other items of no importance

Within the next week my precious angels will no longer travel, they will only rotate out once. Thank you Jesus! Oh the places we will go!!!! It has been noted in another blog that I love my class, this is true. The one draw back I have is that some of them will leave me and we have to redistribute the special ed babies. I will miss my precious babies, and I think it will break their hearts...it does mine. However, no one wins in a room with 31 bodies in it!

Big boy came home again last night, I was so tired, I went to sleep right after he got here. Dan really misses him alot.

I'm curious about something. This week we threw out the keyboard and bought a new one because of sticky keys. I type realatively fast and so I was sure the new elment was the keyboard. Now we have a new keyboard and it is doing the same thing. Does any one have a clue as to what is going on?

It is now time for me to go investigate marked down meat at the grocery store!

Happy Birthday to GABE!

Today, this boy is 12 years old, but he will always be my baby!

From Mom and Dad he got this nifty DS game. Isn't it odd that this boy can beat a game in two days, but can't remember to turn in his homework! At twelve, on his own, he has read To Kill a Mockingbird, but can't remember to use the (.) instead of the (x) sign.
This boy has a roommate named ---Matt. Today he got more scholarship money and made a trip to the college book store, so he is happy. However, he has no job yet. This boy will have a birthday next week.
None of these boys should be confused with this boy who has a job. He is now the new broodmare manager and has a chance at a great career, even if he never goes back to school. However, I think he is around too many vets not to go back.

Note the boy on the right appears to be a camera hog!