After my last big cry in the shower this morning. I'm somewhat better over the things that transpired Friday. There is no reason for anyone to try and apologize, I don't want to hear it. I will continue on and make the best out of this situation. I do not have to eat lunch with those involved, I can go to my room. I don't have to walk down the third grade hall, there are other ways to my room. That way if the parapros feel the need to go on about what a sorry teacher I am, I won't hear it. I did email the first friend I made 11 years ago when I came to Jackson, and stated how the events transpired to me. She has not responded and that is okay as well. I need to move on and I have a job to do. This is too much drama for me.
This verse came to my mind this morning, "Consider the work of God: for who can make that straight which He has made crooked? "—Eccles. 7:13. Thomas Boston wrote a book describing how can we straighten that which God has made crooked. I know that this is from God and he has a purpose and a plan. I will continue on. I will not discuss this matter with F. when she returns. And until I can function without crying, I may not be able to talk to F. for a while. Hopefully, as good a friends as we are she will understand.
I do not want to discuss this at school or anywhere else. I do not want to hear I am sorry from anyone, because it changes nothing. I especially don't want to hear that it was not an attack on me as a person, because it was.
Pray that I will get through this! But my head is spilting, I can't talk, and I want to move forward.
2 comments:
Whatever went down appears to have been pretty awful and I'm very sorry that someone was cruel to you. You've said you don't want to discuss it, so I won't ask you a word about it. I hope you can feel better about it soon.
I am with monkey on this one.
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