1. That I've got good friends. It would be very sad to not have friends.
2. That I've almost got Christmas bought. (This comes mainly from telling everyone "I love you" let's don't exchange gifts and just enjoy each other!)
3. That I'm married to Dan. God has worked hard over the past few months reminding me why I love him.
4. That I don't feel the need to cook big meals for a week this year. That I want to do simple soups, bread, and enjoy my family.
5. That perhaps this year, the focus can be on family, friends, and food. Not on presents and stuff.
I've enjoyed the slow mornings, drinking two cups of coffee and enjoying visiting with Dan. It has been way too long since we've had that luxury.
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Monday, November 24, 2008
Reasons I'm Thankful Part 1
In order to get moving in a forward motion in the holiday spirit, this week will be dedicated to reasons I'm thankful.
1. God saved me!
2. That I really did marry the love of my life. (even though there have been some incredible difficult times)
3. I have my own house at age 49.
4. I have three healthy children and one daughter in law.
5. That our children are not even asking for much this year at Christmas
This week I'm unpacking boxes and writing. Cooking will be limited and savored for a better time! I'm planning a big blowout in December.
PS. Money saving Christmas idea...recycle old cards as covers for a handmade Christmas CD.
1. God saved me!
2. That I really did marry the love of my life. (even though there have been some incredible difficult times)
3. I have my own house at age 49.
4. I have three healthy children and one daughter in law.
5. That our children are not even asking for much this year at Christmas
This week I'm unpacking boxes and writing. Cooking will be limited and savored for a better time! I'm planning a big blowout in December.
PS. Money saving Christmas idea...recycle old cards as covers for a handmade Christmas CD.
Friday, November 21, 2008
What a day
We started early this morning. We had to get Gabe to Jackson to catch the bus. Then go to Stockbridge for Dan's surgery. All went extremely well for Dan. We are very fortunate, it was caught early and had not spread. Others I work with have not been so lucky. Please pray for them over the holiday.
We stopped and picked up Matt's Christmas. It is much, but I felt very good about our choices. Also found a little something for Grandma. I wish everyone was that easy. I bought a new nightgown, on sale for $7. You know when your hubby of 24++ years says your nighties are ratty, it is time to pay up. (I didn't know he even noticed anymore)
I've unpacked some stuff but there is a lot to unpack. Since Drew, Nicole, Grandma, and Grandpa are not coming for Thanksgiving, I'm seriously (sit down) considering NOT COOKING! I've got a house to unpack, a paper to write, and papers to grade, so why should I cook!! We could go out to eat cheaper! Then on Friday we are going over to Norris and Denitia's for a long over due visit.
I still haven't spent some quality time in my whirlpool and that is a top priority.
Tomorrow is pizza and a great football game. BOOMER SOONER!
We stopped and picked up Matt's Christmas. It is much, but I felt very good about our choices. Also found a little something for Grandma. I wish everyone was that easy. I bought a new nightgown, on sale for $7. You know when your hubby of 24++ years says your nighties are ratty, it is time to pay up. (I didn't know he even noticed anymore)
I've unpacked some stuff but there is a lot to unpack. Since Drew, Nicole, Grandma, and Grandpa are not coming for Thanksgiving, I'm seriously (sit down) considering NOT COOKING! I've got a house to unpack, a paper to write, and papers to grade, so why should I cook!! We could go out to eat cheaper! Then on Friday we are going over to Norris and Denitia's for a long over due visit.
I still haven't spent some quality time in my whirlpool and that is a top priority.
Tomorrow is pizza and a great football game. BOOMER SOONER!
Monday, November 17, 2008
11/18/2008
Tomorrow night we will spend in our new house. There is still cleaning and more stuff to move from here. Obviously, over the last four years we were in here like sardines!
Tonight I went to the doctor and she thinks I may have an absess behind my tonsil. She put me on a high power antibiotic and is getting me a fast tract ticket to an ENT. At best she is hoping the antibiotic will make some difference. She asked if I could sleep and I said no, not since the strep throat three weeks ago. She said no wonder, she had never seen a tonsil that big. Thanks! While there I mentioned my crying weekend and asked if having given up birth control pills after 10 years could be a reason, and having my thyroid medicine doseage lowered. She said I'd be a canidate for out of control emotions.
God was good today. I met N early this morning and told her how it seemed to me. There were things she didn't know that had she known she wouldn't have gotten involved. I know that it was prayer and that diffused the situation. I need to at least debrief the paras twice a week and make sure we are all working together and not separate.
After the doctor, we headed to Target! I got a rug for the living room (not something forever, but will last out the couch!) Also, a bed skirt, a mattress cover, two throw pillows, two door rugs, and a bionicle.
Tonight I went to the doctor and she thinks I may have an absess behind my tonsil. She put me on a high power antibiotic and is getting me a fast tract ticket to an ENT. At best she is hoping the antibiotic will make some difference. She asked if I could sleep and I said no, not since the strep throat three weeks ago. She said no wonder, she had never seen a tonsil that big. Thanks! While there I mentioned my crying weekend and asked if having given up birth control pills after 10 years could be a reason, and having my thyroid medicine doseage lowered. She said I'd be a canidate for out of control emotions.
God was good today. I met N early this morning and told her how it seemed to me. There were things she didn't know that had she known she wouldn't have gotten involved. I know that it was prayer and that diffused the situation. I need to at least debrief the paras twice a week and make sure we are all working together and not separate.
After the doctor, we headed to Target! I got a rug for the living room (not something forever, but will last out the couch!) Also, a bed skirt, a mattress cover, two throw pillows, two door rugs, and a bionicle.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Training Union
At training union tonight, I realized that tomorrow will be a difficult day for me. However, I need to be the bigger person in this. For whatever reasons God has allowed this to happen, and I must look for His purpose in all of this.
It is a struggle, the human side of me says that after the comment was made by the other educator present, that I now have no clout whatsoever. The paras won on this one, and who said there isn't power in numbers. But I can't let my mind go there. I am just so sad.
Tomorrow I am going to get up and pray hard before work. That God would help me walk in uprightness. Because truthfully ya'll, I didn't do anything wrong in this situation. I've searched my heart. I do let them get louder than some other teachers might. But literature leads itself to discussion if done correctly, or so I thought. When I model they are talking to me and giving suggestions. So they are loud. They may even be disrespectful, but they aren't to me.
Please pray hard. I'm going for the full armour of God. Two little old ladies in Dan's Training Union Class, CB and BB are going to pray at 7:00 that God will double dip me! I hope He hears and gives me all I need to be gracious and kind to those who have attacted my classroom management ability.
It is a struggle, the human side of me says that after the comment was made by the other educator present, that I now have no clout whatsoever. The paras won on this one, and who said there isn't power in numbers. But I can't let my mind go there. I am just so sad.
Tomorrow I am going to get up and pray hard before work. That God would help me walk in uprightness. Because truthfully ya'll, I didn't do anything wrong in this situation. I've searched my heart. I do let them get louder than some other teachers might. But literature leads itself to discussion if done correctly, or so I thought. When I model they are talking to me and giving suggestions. So they are loud. They may even be disrespectful, but they aren't to me.
Please pray hard. I'm going for the full armour of God. Two little old ladies in Dan's Training Union Class, CB and BB are going to pray at 7:00 that God will double dip me! I hope He hears and gives me all I need to be gracious and kind to those who have attacted my classroom management ability.
A Little Better
After my last big cry in the shower this morning. I'm somewhat better over the things that transpired Friday. There is no reason for anyone to try and apologize, I don't want to hear it. I will continue on and make the best out of this situation. I do not have to eat lunch with those involved, I can go to my room. I don't have to walk down the third grade hall, there are other ways to my room. That way if the parapros feel the need to go on about what a sorry teacher I am, I won't hear it. I did email the first friend I made 11 years ago when I came to Jackson, and stated how the events transpired to me. She has not responded and that is okay as well. I need to move on and I have a job to do. This is too much drama for me.
This verse came to my mind this morning, "Consider the work of God: for who can make that straight which He has made crooked? "—Eccles. 7:13. Thomas Boston wrote a book describing how can we straighten that which God has made crooked. I know that this is from God and he has a purpose and a plan. I will continue on. I will not discuss this matter with F. when she returns. And until I can function without crying, I may not be able to talk to F. for a while. Hopefully, as good a friends as we are she will understand.
I do not want to discuss this at school or anywhere else. I do not want to hear I am sorry from anyone, because it changes nothing. I especially don't want to hear that it was not an attack on me as a person, because it was.
Pray that I will get through this! But my head is spilting, I can't talk, and I want to move forward.
This verse came to my mind this morning, "Consider the work of God: for who can make that straight which He has made crooked? "—Eccles. 7:13. Thomas Boston wrote a book describing how can we straighten that which God has made crooked. I know that this is from God and he has a purpose and a plan. I will continue on. I will not discuss this matter with F. when she returns. And until I can function without crying, I may not be able to talk to F. for a while. Hopefully, as good a friends as we are she will understand.
I do not want to discuss this at school or anywhere else. I do not want to hear I am sorry from anyone, because it changes nothing. I especially don't want to hear that it was not an attack on me as a person, because it was.
Pray that I will get through this! But my head is spilting, I can't talk, and I want to move forward.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Thought I'd Feel Better
I really thought that I'd feel better as the day has wore on, but I don't. I guess part of it was how fast I was tried and found guilty by my friends. No one asked me what happened. The parapros won. Funny I didn't know I was even on trial.
To top it off I'm getting sicker and my chest is starting to hurt which means this is in my lungs. I've cried so much I can't seem to pack. (I don't like any of the boxes!) The living in between two houses about sums up my spirit. I'm so sad and hurt and lonely. I honestly look back over yesterday and I'm just numb. If I knew what I did, other than did not make an irreverant child show respect to a parapro who is up in their face. Forget the fact that just the day before the same parapro had not liked the way I was dealing with the child and totally disregarded what I said and went to NH, who told her to take it to V. He was shocked when he heard that I had originally said, then the para went on her way.
Oh and if you were wondering why the first parapro had to be moved it is because my students are rude and disrespectful and loud. They made her nervous. Forget that one day in class within ear shot of a child she proceeded to tell me how sorry is momma, daddy, and preacher grandpa were. Now tell me how you make a kid respect someone who has said horrible things about your family for everyone to hear.
To top it off I'm getting sicker and my chest is starting to hurt which means this is in my lungs. I've cried so much I can't seem to pack. (I don't like any of the boxes!) The living in between two houses about sums up my spirit. I'm so sad and hurt and lonely. I honestly look back over yesterday and I'm just numb. If I knew what I did, other than did not make an irreverant child show respect to a parapro who is up in their face. Forget the fact that just the day before the same parapro had not liked the way I was dealing with the child and totally disregarded what I said and went to NH, who told her to take it to V. He was shocked when he heard that I had originally said, then the para went on her way.
Oh and if you were wondering why the first parapro had to be moved it is because my students are rude and disrespectful and loud. They made her nervous. Forget that one day in class within ear shot of a child she proceeded to tell me how sorry is momma, daddy, and preacher grandpa were. Now tell me how you make a kid respect someone who has said horrible things about your family for everyone to hear.
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