Friends

Well it is hard to imagine how people make it without good friends. Even though God choose for me to travel through life with no extended family of my own, He has always provided me friends. Freda, Gunter, Sarah, Tracie, Denise, and Diane have all been wonderful (even Hannah who called Freda so as not to bother me). Brenda emailed from Oklahoma her concern.

My depression is better today. Yesterday, the weight of the world rested on my shoulders. My editor with my doctorate called and completely took my mind off the situation. I got up this morning and wrote my paper. It is 2:30pm and I have one paper left for this class due in two weeks.

I confessed to Dan this morning that I had prayed for God to take care of him when he was ugly to me last Sunday. He reminded me this morning that while I try to be in control of everything, God didn't need my help and I had no control over Him. Also, that I didn't have the kind of power necessary to plot the events of our lives.

I find comfort today in knowing that God directs the paths of our lives and that the twists and turns are chosen by Him. I look at this as a terrible tragedy and I am heart-sick that a woman with a family has lost her life. Yet, I know that God doesn't make mistakes. I understand that it is normal to ask "why". And I know that is because in my humanness I can see no possible good in this situation.

It has been written that "the wisdom of God is displayed when He brings good to us and glory to Himself out of confusion and calamity rather than out of pleasant times." Corrie Ten Boom once said that life was like a tapestry. All we can see are the knots and dangling strings, but God sees a beautiful picture on the other side. Although I can not comprehend all that might happen in the next few weeks. God sees the finished product. As a family we must trust him to see us through this horrible ordeal. May we live worthy of His calling.