Let Me Tell You About My Jesus

 After 10 weeks of illness, I'm tired. It started with strep throat, moved to a hospital stay, sepsis, gout, and weeks of recovery, only to do it again. Saturday (November 30th) was a very low day, I hurt and felt defeated. 

That's when God started moving.

Whitney sent me a blog post by Ann Voskamp.

Voskamp wrote:

"We want clarity —God just wants us to come closer.

We want to know the roadmap through the future —God just wants us to know real intimate relationship with Him right now.

We want to know what’s going to happen —God just wants us to not let anything that happens to ever stop us from going to Him."

And friend, that was me! I wanted to know why!

I got up Sunday morning and even though in pain, I went to church. Why? Because I firmly believe that God gives special grace when His children meet together.

God did not fail to dispense the grace I needed. Pastor Rob was preaching out of Hebrews 11 and reminded us that in those hard times when all we have is faith God will supply the grace needed.

Now if these two incidents had been all God had to say to me that would have been more than enough, but He wasn't done.

Jackie Hill Perry on November 20th posted, "Don't waste this trial." She stated, "Trials have a purpose: sanctification. So don't waste the opportunity to grow just because the growth is uncomfortable. God is working so let Him."

Now, my friend, I don't have to tell you that I have absolutely no clue what God is doing-none. However, I know God and I know that all of this is working for my good, and for now, that is what I will rest in!

In God's Timing

 How many times in life have you heard or will hear the phrase "In God's timing"? I've probably heard and said it hundreds of times, but yesterday when the preacher's wife said it - well it hit a little differently.

You see I've tried hard for two years to lose weight. I've tried HCG shots and a restricted diet, semiglutide shots, Weight Watchers, Noom, and Faster Way. So far nothing has just dropped the weight.

In April my boss decided I needed a change of scenery and moved me down several grade levels that will require walking and energy. I'm old!

Summer rolled in, my favorite time of the year! I could get back in the pool and exercise. Visions of a renewed teacher for those 4th graders danced in my head. Then three weeks into summer I pulled, tweaked, and angered (no one really knows) my IT band in my already painful legs.

So, Lord, what is going on. 

Then yesterday as Lynn prayed for me, I understood that God is working on me, and my timetable is not necessarily His.

Scripture confirms that all of our time is in God's control.

• Psalm 27:14 "Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let your heart take courage; wait for the Lord!"
• Isaiah 40:31 "But they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint."
• Galatians 6:9 "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up."
• Proverbs 3:5-6 "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths."

So, what does God have planned, only He knows, but I'm looking.

Songs that speak

 🎶On the road to Salvation I stick out my thumb and He gives me a ride...🎶Lyrics by the late great Rich Mullins; however, yesterday I couldn't shake off that there was so much more to the lyrics than poetic license.

Scripture teaches we were saved, we are being saved, and one day we will be saved. (Some of you just spit out your coffee.)

Ephesians 2:8 states, "For it is by grace you have been saved through faith, and this not from yourselves; it is the gift of God..." Or theological term we've been justified.

1 Corinthians 1:18 tells us, "For the message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God." (sanctified)

Romans 13:11 states that one day we will be glorified, "And do this, understanding the occasion. The hour has come for you to wake up from your slumber, for our salvation is nearer now than when we first believed."

Salvation, then, has three aspects:

• Past: We have been saved from the penalty of sin. We have been justified.
• Present: We are being saved from the power of sin. We are being sanctified.
• Future: We will be saved from the presence of sin. We will be glorified.

 However, I still need an answer for the reason I'm so moved by the words of the song. Perhaps a look at the word hitchhiker may help. 

A hitchhiker sticking out his thumb symbolizes his willingness to except help and a readiness for the next stage of the journey. The very act of hitchhiking implies trust in the unknown.

Mullins's use of the phrase gives us pause to reflect on the journey, the journey to glorification when we will no longer battle the effects of sin. In other words, to embrace the ride. 

Friend, I'm so thankful that on this road of salvation God is willing to walk with me. 

Reflecting

 Looking back over this week I feel nothing but blessed. Even though it has been a hard pain week. The blessings have just overflowed.

Would I like to live my life pain free? Yes. Would I like to put in all this effort and see weight loss? Yes. 

But you know what - God has bigger plans! 

Gotquestions.org says, "Blessed speaks of our inner state of well-being, the prosperity of our souls in Christ. Blessedness comes from unhindered fellowship with God the Father through our Lord Jesus. To be blessed is to experience the full impact of God’s presence in our lives now and for all eternity."

The website goes on to say, "The Bible measures blessedness differently from how people of the world measure it: “Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him” (James 1:12). To those who rest in God, He grants an inner state of joy that is unaffected by external trials."

Oh my friend, I pray today you feel His blessings on you!

Once

 Once there was a girl who was alone in the world.

She cried out to God to teach her how to trust Him.

He answered!

For 46 years God took her in and out of many trials. Always leading and providing a way. Some roads were rocky and dangerous, while others were smoother sailing. 

The girl learned to trust. She believed when others didn't. She just learned to believe he could and would walk with her.

Then one day the Lord said, "Do you trust me?" 

The girl's answered, "Yes."

The girl had a task before her that seemed impossible. Her body was wracked with pain, she was old. So, but she opened her Bible and God spoke to her.

He reminded her out of 1 Corinthians 1:27, "But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong."

Out of Isaiah 55:8-9, "“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord. As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than yours."

Out of Isaiah 41:10, "So do not fear I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."

In 2 Timothy 4:17, "But the Lord stood with me and gave me strength."

From Psalms 3:3, But you, O Lord, are a shield to me, my glory, and the lifter of my head."

Every day He gave a clear sign. So, on the day of the task the girl got up and once again prayed for help. And once again He answered in scripture, "I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears." (Psalm 34:4)

Once there was a girl and that girl was me!

Isaiah 12:2: 

Surely God is my salvation;

    I will trust and not be afraid.

The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense[a];
    he has become my salvation.”

He speaks

 Literally two weeks ago, I went to our church's women's retreat. I remember leaving after the first session and foolishly saying to God, "I'm not sure this is useful my life's been pretty calm lately."

I remember when I said it I immediately said, "Please don't send any trials my way."

Oh how God must have laughed.

Now friend hear me good, me changing grade levels is insignificant in the scope of life. Many people are facing far greater hurdles - sick spouses and sick children. So for me to whine about this just feels wrong. 

But back to my conference, that first night Christina Fox mentioned that when we are surprised by "unwanted visitors" they take us hostage. Friend, since March 28th I've been a picture of a hostage. 

So what changed? I cried out to God. During our retreat Fox shared how it is not wrong for us to "express our feelings to God." To be honest with Him. To set my mind on who He is and to recount His faithfulness in the past. 

While this is not a problem for me many may struggle. This is why I try to be transparent in my writing, most of us really are a hot mess! However, if you need deeper understanding on how to face the "unwanted visitors" in life, then I strongly recommend Fox's book A Heart Set Free. It will definitely help you structure your prayer life similar to the Psalms.

Peace?

 Guilt - real or imaginary is a horrible burden. Apparently, if the last three weeks are any indication I'm suffering from imaginary guilt (according to Dan's diagnosis).

Let me explain, I'm one of those people who if you lose your cool or type out that belligerent email, I immediately question what I did to make you act that way. Even though logically, I know it is your problem.

So while you're sleeping like a baby, I'm wide awake wondering why you did what you did and replaying the conversations leading up to this disruption of my peace. 

In other words my peace is disturbed. 

And that's when I turn to Jesus (and Dan). I pray. I talk things out with my husband, who tries to understand this crazy quirk about me. Also, I immerse myself in God's Word.

Philippians 4:6-7 says, "“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” 

So even though I pray, leave it with God, and then a few hours later I take it back up. 

Romans 8:6 says, “The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.” 

So then, as in all things, it comes down to do I believe God will do what He says. It is always, in my life at least, - do I trust God. 

Jerry Bridges, author of Trusting God wrote, "Don't believe everything you think. You cannot be trusted to tell yourself the truth. Stay in The Word."

He further points out, "Trust is not a passive state of mind. It is a vigorous act of the soul by which we choose to lay hold on the promises of God and cling to them despite the adversity that at times seeks to overwhelms us."

The psalmist knew this and in Psalm 85:8 says, “The mind governed by the flesh is death, but the mind governed by the Spirit is life and peace.” 

Oh Lord, help me be governed by the Spirit in all I do or say.